I would like to share a complete God moment in my life this week. Tuesday night I had a migraine that was throbbing, light sensitive, and nauseating. I tried to sleep and medicate it - neither worked. Yesterday at 2 pm I left form my clinical that started at 3 at a local hospital. On the drive there I was really struggling between calling my instructor, pulling over and calling someone to come get me, and just keep going. I felt awful- sick to my stomach, slightly dizzy and in a little pain. Then I heard this song.
Lyrics from www.icelebz.com.
Verse 1
Surely children weren't made for the streets
And Fathers were not made to leave
Surely this isn't how it should be
Let Your kingdom come
Verse 2
Surely nations were not made for war
Or the broken and due to be ignored
Surely this couldn't be what You saw
Let Your kingdom come
Here in my heart
Chorus
And I will live to carry your compassion
To love a world that's broken
To be your hands and feet
And I will give with the life that I've been given
And go beyond religion to see the world be changed
By the power of Your Name
The power of Your Name
Verse 3
Surely life wasn't made to regret
And the lost were not made to forget
Surely faith without action is dead
Let Your Kingdom come
Lord break this heart
Bridge
Jesus Your Name
Is a shelter for the hurting
Your Name
Is a refuge the weak
Only Your Name
Can take the undeserving
Jesus Your Name
Holds everything I need
God tugged my heart. Tears started streaming. I knew I had a purpose for being there that day. I began to pray he would take away the pain and nausea. Its started to subside. I pulled in the parking lot began my trek to the area where we were meeting. The pain, nausea, and discomfort? GONE. COMPLETELY. I had the opportunity to see a c-section - to see the beautiful beginning of a life that God had perfectly created. I had the opportunity to care for a young new mother and father. All of this took place at a hospital where the employees have a prayer board in their break room to lift each other up. Is that AWESOME or what? You know what? The story does not stop there...this song and feeling of being loved deeply by my creator has not stopped there...
Today I looked up this song on Youtube. This first one has moved me to more deeply consider the trip to Guatemala with my nursing school and the second...Listen to the part where he talks about how he included his son in the song...and think about what unit I told you I was working in...
God's love for us is so great that it is almost imaginable. Just when I felt alone and disappointed at the possibility of missing a clinical experience God turned it into an opportunity to minister to my heart- to remind me of my purpose- to encourage me to love compassionately- just as he was showing me that he loved me.
